it is 12:09AM on thursday 12th june 2014. i have now been free of exams (read:college in general/studying/pseudo revision and probably the contents of my social life) for approximately 13 hours and 9 minutes. no doubt by the time i've finished writing this post it'll have increased slightly, or dramatically if i fall asleep/lose my motivation before i click 'publish'.
it's a weird feeling knowing i've finished. this is potentially the only time in my life where i have 4 months to sit around and do nothing. obviously, there's loads of things i can do - workout, see my friends, watch endless tv, but i'm not sure i can fit a whole lifetime's 'sitting around' into the space of 4 months. it's worth a shot though.
it's now 12:13AM and for possibly the first time in my life i'm struggling to write. it's ironic how pre-exams i made wild plans for tonight - before realising that it's not especially socially acceptable to go drinking on a wednesday night. within term time. on your own.
instead, i'm sitting in bed contemplating taking my makeup off, while listening to andy c at about 10 decibels and drinking fizzy peach water. #clubcanthandlemenow
as a first post i'm fully aware this isn't up to standard. i should be plotting my hopes and dreams, or explaining my favourite songs, or .. revising? (i still can't get it out of my head)
my mind should be filled with summer plans - hot foreign days punctuated with waves, long nights trooping round unknown places wishing i'd worn more comfortable shoes, evenings both remembered and forgotten. instead, i'm worrying about things like my explanation of the elaboration likelihood model, how to correctly define the term 'abstract' and whether social democratisation is truly the biggest contributing factor for language change in the modern world. don't do a levels, kids, they're not worth the stress.
radio one has just reminded me that i'm listening to andy c's essential mix and my phone has just reminded me that it's 12:23AM and this post is still unfinished in more than one way.
i feel like i should be representing myself in a more positive way - highlighting my academic abilities of an a2 level english language student by appropriately adding commas and fullstops and not adding too many coordinating conjunctions and remembering to end my sentences with anything but a preposition.
'obligation' is realistically the reason why i'm still awake; i haven't had more than 6 hours sleep for the past two weeks, along with 4.5 hours of exams, 3.5 hours of work and about 100.5 hours of revision all within the past 48 hours. it's possible, i promise you.
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